On February 16, 2023, my mom, Renae E., passed away.

I really don't know how to process this. Really. My mother was the most important person on the planet to me. It's gonna be hard to live without her. My mother had a heart of gold and would help me and anybody else that is...y'know...down...?

This is affecting me harder than you think. Posting this took longer because I'm still processing everything that just happened, however, I feel like I should've saw this coming. Healthwise in recent years, she has been through a lot of shit. A lot. Pneumonia, COPD, and all that. Even worse, she survived COVID last year and was relatively fine. That really hurts me because she survived through all that...and finally died.

It's gonna take some time to process everything right now, however I will still chug on.

With that said, I know some of y'all aren't religious, but I'll leave a brief prayer/poem here. Before I do, I should note that I disabled the comments for this post. Send me condolences through DMs and stuff. Alright?

Let's begin:

Lord, please take Mother under your wing

Keep her safe, no matter what I do

Lord, please help me process my grief

And reassure me that she is home.

Help me process everything

Everything that really hurt

So I can carry on with her memory

All the way to the very end

I pray all of this in Jesus' name.

Amen.

Again, if anybody wants to send me condolences, you already know where to send them. Thanks.

Sincerely,

Chase E., a.k.a. ok cheez,

the loving offspring of Renae E.,

may she rest in peace.